Flagler Beach Sunrise

 Got up to watch the sunrise this morning, it did not disappoint.

 

A couple pulled up on a motorcycle and stopped at the covered table across the street to watch the sunrise.
When they were getting ready to leave I walked over and talked to them. Sent them the pictures I had taken of them.

Flagler Beach 61st Birthday

 Booked an Airbnb on Flagler Beach with Rhonda and Keith for my 61st Birthday.

It is right on A1A and since it is on the 2nd floor we had a great view of the ocean from the balcony.

Silver River Kayak

Tuesday July 21, 20226 went kayaking on the Silver River with Rhonda Rose and Gary Colgan.

Saw 4 manatee, 2 otters, 5 monkeys, lots of turtles and gators.

Gary and Julia from Clearwater Aquarium were looking for the manatee named Curious to remove his belt. We were unable to locate him. Gary did get video of another manatee that had fishing line wrapped around his tail so Clearwater is planning to return tomorrow to try and capture him to remove the line.

Grief One Day at a Time

JULY 17

"But here I am in July, and why am I thinking about Christmas pudding? Probably because we always pine for what we do not have. The winter seems cozy and romantic in the hell of summer, but hot beaches and sunlight are what we yearn for all winter"

Joanna Franklin Bell

That about sums up our grief: We are pining for what we do not have. Yet when we had our special people with us, we did not always appreciate the moments we shared.

Such is human nature. It's all but impossible to constantly live in appreciation of the now. We're equipped with minds that remember as well as project into the future. Through our imagination, we travel through time and space at the drop of a hat. This is both a gift and a curse.

But maintaining a mindful presence is something we can work on. The more skilled at it we become the more we are likely to appreciate the rest of our days. We will always remember (thank goodness) and worry about what is to come, but we can also become more adept at inhabiting the now.

I am pining for what I do not have - you.

I am working on appreciating what I do have right now. 

From the book

Grief One Day at a Time

365 Meditations to help you heal after loss

by Alan D. Wolfelt, PH. D.

Armadillos

Saw three Armadillos on my way up tot he fitness center.

One on the left and two under the tree on the right.

 

Woodstock tattoo

 Beauty in a Canvas Tattoo and Art Gallery

After work on Friday I decided to go get a tattoo of Woodstock

Jeni loved Woodstock

This will always remind me of her

Husband and wide in old age

 

Bok Tower

Bok Tower Gardens

3 years ago we made an adventure to Bok Tower Gardens in Lake Wales Florida.
We walked the gardens and listed to the bells play.

It was a hot day but we did find a table in the shade to sit for a while and enjoy the day.

We had lunch at the little cafe.

Jeni - Monday June 29 2026

 56 days ... another rough day

Seems like I am struggling to just get by. I get up, get cleaned up, work, exercise, eat supper, and go to bed.

Think of and talk to you all the time. I look for you in things I find of beauty. The clouds, the birds singing on my morning walk, the sunrise, and the sunset.

Every day is tough. Oh how I wish you were still by my side so I could tell you one more  time that I love you. I am glad that you are no longer in pain... I  guess that is the good side.

Your journey has ended and mine has to go on. I like to think that you are by my side in spirit and can experience my adventures as I carry on.

Another counseling session today. I seem to cry for the entire hour. I think it helps but part of me does not want to go because of the feelings that I face.

I am so happy that I got to my share life with you for the 32 years we were married, you have been the best part of my life. 

Sunset

Walking to the mailbox this evening when I saw the sun setting and the rays were very distinct. The picture does not do it justice. You could see the bottom of the clouds being hit by the rays.

Last thoughts of the day thinking of you. I miss you every day.